Sad memory

I know God will walk the path along with my side so that's nothing to be worried and as a human we should smile.

Today, I went to visit my great grandfather's grave with my father's side family. Because I have a big family so we needed four cars to go even not all my family member go along. In the morning, i felt like don't want to go but my father would go "crazy" for sure if i didn't go so i got no choice but follow lo.


It supposed to be a happy "trip" but when my auntie (bak leung) talked about my family's financial problem, it reminded my grandfather. When he gambles, he is out of control and even he is losing he will still contiune. After that, he owed many shark loan money and my father paid for him. 100K and 100K helped him to pay yet he still didn't feel guilty until I think when I was around 7-8 years old. Loan Shark came to my grandmother's house and my grandfather has flee. Loan Shark kept bugging my family and my father paid for the last time and warned the loan shark if they still want to borrow $$ to my grandfather he wont pay anymore. So that's the last time and also the most serious.


My father paid liao a lot and my auntie said even enough to buy BMW or a Bungalow (bungalow doesnt mean million, i think around 300k-500k you can buy one). And now my family is in problem now. We got financial problem and my mom asked my grandfather to borrow us some $$$ to educate my brother but he refused. That's fine. But do you know what he did during CNY? He went to gamble again he lost 20-40k. WTF! That's enough to buy a car for my brother he rather to gamble instead of buying a car for my brother. Not asking him to pay everything for us but if he gonna to waste his money like that why not he use the money he gambled for my family benefit? I mean we borrowed him quite a lot of money but he didnt pay us.


Just like today, he bought a watch. His friend sold that to him and he used RM400++ to buy that but what when we identify that watch it's not a branded watch. It's so old and the gold doesn't like gold colour and there was some scratches on the "mirror". My mom said that it's "A stuff" and he argued back. My mum and all my aunties said it's fake and then he said "even it's fake, i cant do anything".


=.=lllll You STUPID BRAINLESS OLD MAN! DON'T YOU SAY THAT! YOU ARE THE OLDEST AMONG US BUT YOU ARE NOTHING THAT WORTHY FOR US TO RESPECT! PLEASE!!! PRETTY PLEASE!!! PLEASE DO NOT KILL MY LAST GOOD IMPRESSION OF OLD MAN! I REALLY HATE OLD MAN VERY MUCH BECAUSE OF LAM FUNG'S INCCIDENT AND MY OWN EXPERIENCE AND NOW U REALLY KILLING MY LAST GOOD IMPRESSION OF OLD MAN!!!!!!


GRRRRRRR!!!! BECAUSE OF YOU I THINK MY FAMILY HAVE A BETTER LIFE. YES, I'M NOT GONNA TO SAY THAT I'M THE RICHEST PERSON IN THE WORLD BECAUSE NOWADAY IT'S VERY NORMAL FOR SOMEONE TO HAVE BUNGALOW OR BMW BUT WANT I'M TRYING TO SAY IF I GOT MONEY JUST LIKE BACK THEN MY PARENTS WILL NOT ARGUE BECAUSE OF MONEY!!!

IT'S REALLY SAD WHEN SEEING MY MUM CRYING BECAUSE MY FATHER SCOLDED HIM! EVERYTHING IS BECAUSE OF YOU AND NOW MY PARENTS PLANNING TO SELL ANOTHER HOUSE NEAR "AMPANG" THERE.


HEY OLD MAN! ARE YOU REALLY THAT HAPPY SEEING YOUR DAUGHTER TO HAVE A HAPPY LIFE AND YOUR SON HAS A BAD LIFE? PLEASE! EVERYONE IS YOUR SON AND PLEASE DO NOT BE SO BIAS! EVENTHOUGH MY FATHER HELPED YOU SO MUCH BUT YOU NEVER SAID ANYTHING GOOD ABOUT MY FAMILY!!!!!

Ehem...erm...i think I'm overacted. Hahahahaha.....this is all already past and we should look for the future and not past :)