29th February 2012

With a blink of eyes, it's already March. I feel like it just turned 2012 yesterday.



I've just finished watching this drama. It's very nice. I like Linda Chung here although she is quite annoying at certain time. It's a waste that she doesn't end up with Ron Ng and living alone in Australia.

Actually, the storyline of this drama is quite similar to my family problem. Hahaha...

4th February 2012

I just came back from my aunt's reunion dinner at her house. Many of my cousins were there and I enjoyed that moment!

2nd February 2012

My brother just told me that my father was complaining about me not giving him money although I got my salary already.

I'm really speechless, haha. Why didn't he tell the world that I've treated him a dinner? Why didn't he tell the world that I bought him a watch? (although in fact, it was bought my mother and she just told him that it was bought my me.)

Seriously, I'm really speechless. I just got RM800 for my salary and not RM8000. I already treated him a meal that's like RM50++. My salary left RM750 and I still need to repair my com. My DVD room has spoiled, so do my speakers and I just replaced my broken mouse. Not to mention, I bought myself a pair of glasses and also some winter clothes to get ready for going to China. RM750 isn't that much because a pair of glasses costed me RM100 and each winter clothes are about RM100.

I treated you a meal, you didn't say that. I 'bought' you a watch, you didn't say that. What I got in return is complain, complain and complain? You complaint about the watch is cheap watch and actually it's not. It's RM200 watch and my mom just bought it while it was offer...and even it's a cheap watch, can you show some appreciation? I don't own a bank. I don't photocopy money!!!!

西遊記

This drama is still awesome like always although this is my second time watching this drama :)

28 December 2011 - Cloudy Day

Somehow I feel like my future is very uncertain. Somehow I feel like I'm useless and this world is very cruel. Somehow I feel like I'm alone and nobody willing to be my companion.

2011 is going to end and looking back it's an awful year. I wanted to learn Japanese but I didn't take any actions. I wanted to get my driving license but I've no money. Yes, I've worked for two months but I need to keep it to pay for my examination fee in May. I don't know why I'm taking these papers when I don't even have confidence in myself.

There are too many worries. My height. My family problem. My studies. Financial problem and a lot more is troubling me. Out of these problems, you may think my height is just a peanut matter but well, for you maybe, yes. To me it's very important. I feel very sad whenever I go out and people around me are taller than me. I just want to reach 170cm. Is it very over? Yes, Yes, Yes. I know there are many people are shorter than me. I know that and I kept telling myself that but what can I do if I still feel sad about it?

Very soon, I'll be 20 and I'm good at nothing. I really don't want to be a failure and live as a 'main character' but I feel like I'm destined to be a supporting character or worse, just an extra. Gosh, I just hope 2012 will be better and I need to gain my confidence. But...what should I do?

17 December 2011 - Sunny Day

The blog owner is back to update his blog again!

Since it's very hard to think of a good title for every post, I have decided to put it as a date together with weather on that particular day. I'm gonna put a title if there's a title that I can think of but if no, then just date and weather. You know, it's very hard to come up with a title on random post just like the one I'm writing now.

:D

I will start working tomorrow at Maxis centre!

I hope there will be something happy waiting for me!!!

Release Date of A2 Examination Result

Tomorrow is the release date!

I feel nervous but nothing I can do about it. Hmm, I'm not going to take my result tomorrow but on next week. I hope I can pass all the subjects! Pray, pray and pray is the only thing that I can do now ....

It has been few days already but I still haven't received any replies from the companies that I've sent job applications to. Therefore, I called to them and they asked me for interview this Saturday. Hmmm, what should I prepare for the interview?

And I'm wondering if it's a right decision to join next year January intake instead of the September one.....

Background changed!

My first post after having a big change in my blog! Howdee!

At last,I came to write down another page of my life:P

Ok, I've finished my A'level at last and I'm soooooooooooooooo free!!! I'll only continue my studies next year January because I want to work to ease my family's burden. My family is facing financial problem because my father doesn't get paid for his work. Most of the customers refused to pay him and we have tried to give him some advices but ended up in arguing. I just don't understand why is he like that? His partners betrayed him and flee together with the money but he was still siding them.

Uhm, nevermind. Stop with all these craps. Just back to my own story. I'm looking for a job on newspaper and I've sent them some email job applications. Waiting for their replies now. I really hope I'll get at least a reply but at the same time I hope I don't get any. This is because I'm not ready yet. I'm afraid of going into society world...alone...

But! I feel a little excited as well. Hmm, it's really confusing, eh? Yeah, I get confused with this mixed feeling, too.


Time to learn from this girl in Heart of Greed, Seung Joy Sum ~~~