28 December 2011 - Cloudy Day

Somehow I feel like my future is very uncertain. Somehow I feel like I'm useless and this world is very cruel. Somehow I feel like I'm alone and nobody willing to be my companion.

2011 is going to end and looking back it's an awful year. I wanted to learn Japanese but I didn't take any actions. I wanted to get my driving license but I've no money. Yes, I've worked for two months but I need to keep it to pay for my examination fee in May. I don't know why I'm taking these papers when I don't even have confidence in myself.

There are too many worries. My height. My family problem. My studies. Financial problem and a lot more is troubling me. Out of these problems, you may think my height is just a peanut matter but well, for you maybe, yes. To me it's very important. I feel very sad whenever I go out and people around me are taller than me. I just want to reach 170cm. Is it very over? Yes, Yes, Yes. I know there are many people are shorter than me. I know that and I kept telling myself that but what can I do if I still feel sad about it?

Very soon, I'll be 20 and I'm good at nothing. I really don't want to be a failure and live as a 'main character' but I feel like I'm destined to be a supporting character or worse, just an extra. Gosh, I just hope 2012 will be better and I need to gain my confidence. But...what should I do?

17 December 2011 - Sunny Day

The blog owner is back to update his blog again!

Since it's very hard to think of a good title for every post, I have decided to put it as a date together with weather on that particular day. I'm gonna put a title if there's a title that I can think of but if no, then just date and weather. You know, it's very hard to come up with a title on random post just like the one I'm writing now.

:D

I will start working tomorrow at Maxis centre!

I hope there will be something happy waiting for me!!!

Release Date of A2 Examination Result

Tomorrow is the release date!

I feel nervous but nothing I can do about it. Hmm, I'm not going to take my result tomorrow but on next week. I hope I can pass all the subjects! Pray, pray and pray is the only thing that I can do now ....

It has been few days already but I still haven't received any replies from the companies that I've sent job applications to. Therefore, I called to them and they asked me for interview this Saturday. Hmmm, what should I prepare for the interview?

And I'm wondering if it's a right decision to join next year January intake instead of the September one.....

Background changed!

My first post after having a big change in my blog! Howdee!

At last,I came to write down another page of my life:P

Ok, I've finished my A'level at last and I'm soooooooooooooooo free!!! I'll only continue my studies next year January because I want to work to ease my family's burden. My family is facing financial problem because my father doesn't get paid for his work. Most of the customers refused to pay him and we have tried to give him some advices but ended up in arguing. I just don't understand why is he like that? His partners betrayed him and flee together with the money but he was still siding them.

Uhm, nevermind. Stop with all these craps. Just back to my own story. I'm looking for a job on newspaper and I've sent them some email job applications. Waiting for their replies now. I really hope I'll get at least a reply but at the same time I hope I don't get any. This is because I'm not ready yet. I'm afraid of going into society world...alone...

But! I feel a little excited as well. Hmm, it's really confusing, eh? Yeah, I get confused with this mixed feeling, too.


Time to learn from this girl in Heart of Greed, Seung Joy Sum ~~~

Happy 19th Birthday

Hohoho, it's already my birthday ~~~

My 19th birthday ~~~~ I didn't have grand celebration though. Went to pray in the early of the morning and then I went to CC to play Dota with my friend. We won the game although we were planning to leave game at first, lol. I think it's because today is my big day, haha.

After playing Dota at CC, we just went home and yea, lols. Didn't do anything but stayed in my house until now. Hahahaha.....

Eh, i have nothing else to say......well,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF AND AYANO KUDO!!!!

1 more hour to go until Yamada Ryosuke's birthday :) Happy Birthday, Ryosuke ~~~~

3 days until my birthday

Yeah, 3 days more until my 19th birthday! Happy Early Birthday to myself!!!!

Hahaha, I'm really happy and feeling worried at the same time because exam is 10 days after my birthday!!!! It has spoiled my mood....seriously, argh, why every time my birthday is very close to examination?

Thinking back of past, I would be so happy jumping around waiting for my birthday when I was in my high school life because exams weren't important back then but it's so damn important now!

I really miss my elementary lifestyle. After schooling, I would follow my mom to her work place and then we went back to home together around 4pm. Once I reached my home, I would take out my PS and played for 1-2 hours!!! Hmmm? Homework? I got it done while I was waiting at my mom's working place! Hehe, it's really a sweet memory ~~~

Well, haha. Don't be worried! I know I can pass all the papers!!! Gambatteh ~~~

2 Weeks until A2

Lolsss...

I'm speechless. Nothing to say. 14 days until exam....hohohoh....God bless....

Gonna stay in college to study for the whole day tomorrow!!!!

Gambatteh, myself (T.T)

17 days until A2 Examination

Exam is getting so close....sigh!

17 days until A2 examination but next week is my birthday already ~~~

This exam really spoils my mood T.T

ARGH!!!! I miss the good old days which exams weren't really important ~~~~

Sigh 2

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Sigh, I didn't do revision in these two days because I couldn't do revision when I stayed in the house. Oh gosh, exam is getting nearer and nearer yet I'm doing nothing but waiting for it to come. Studying can be torturing sometimes. I have to go to college tomorrow for the class. I really don't want to go. It's just like a place that is very strange to me. Why am I like this? Why do I like to stay in the house all the time? I know I can't be like this but I really hate going out from the house. Oh damn, I know I must overcome this. Just cheer up and also buck up, myself!

Sigh

Exam is coming again. Sigh. 30 days from today. Sigh.

I will do my best to pass all the subjects.

Business and Law!

And Ganbatte, Japan ~~~~ You're not alone because the world is together with you facing the difficulties! Wish Japan a speedy recover ~~~~

Tadaima ~

OK, first post in year 2011! I went hiatus for about 3 months and I think I'm gonna to update my blog more frequent. I was busy gaming, sleeping, eating, playing, watching, and reading (comics and novels that aren't related to academic)for 3 months.

In conclusion, I was simply enjoying my life :)